Monday, November 12, 2012

Trunk or Treat 2012

I had purchased the kids' Halloween costumes last spring and was anxiously awaiting the holiday. Actually, not Halloween, but our annual twins' group Trunk or Treat. It's our best opportunity for trick or treating and the only thing we have participated in so far. When it comes to the actual holiday, the lots in our neighborhood average 2 acres and that is a lot of walking for little legs. Plus, I think since we have lived in this house 10 years we have only had 3 knocks on our door at Halloween!

What were the costumes I found? M&Ms! A blue and a yellow, complete with felt shoe spats to look like boots!

Now we are passionate about our trunk decorating...or I should probably say I am but Shannon was actually pretty into it this year. Our first year Adam was a lion and Sara was a tiger so we decorated our trunk as a jungle. Last year Sara was a prairie girl and Adam was a cowboy so we decorated with a campfire. With M&M costumes this year, I had the idea to have a movie theater candy display case. I thought we were ahead of the game because we started planning the night before instead of the day of like past years. We stopped by a local movie theater and they donated 3 movie posters that I planned on creating some kind of backdrop with. Shannon had an idea for building the shelves.

Saturday we headed to Grandma's new house to work on the project because Shannon's tools were at our friend's log cabin home and another friend had his tools at my mom's working on a remodeling project. Did you follow all that? Tick tock, tick tock. Lunchtime came and I had brought a pizza to cook. We weren't even close to finishing so I asked mom to take the kids home for a nap while Shannon and I finished. Luckily both our vehicles were there. 2:00 and I am done with my part. Trunk or Treat starts at 4. Problem is that I measured wrong so it didn't fit exactly how I wanted but it would still work. Tick tock, tick tock. 2:45. I still need to get home, shower, get the kids ready...3:10 and we get in the car which...won't start! Thankfully mom's car was in the garage and we could jump start ours. We got home at 3:20. I showered while the kids got into costume. 3:45 and we are out the door. Except we get 5 minutes down the road and realize we forgot the pumpkin baskets to put candy in. 4:15 and we finally arrive. Thankfully we weren't the last to arrive, almost though.

Sadly, no awards were won this year. Because we were late, we didn't even know we had to have a number attached to our vehicle for voting! Mark this down - next year we are preparing it the weekend before!

The kids had a ton of fun, though, and that's all that matters.


Check it out - more M&Ms!

 





Friday, November 9, 2012

Boston Bound?

Last week Sara had her 3 month routine follow up ultrasound, blood work, and urinalysis.

Once again, Sara's actual draw of the bloodwork was a breeze. The nurse asked if I needed someone to come in to help hold her arm down. Ummm, no? Sure enough, Sara sat on my lap again still as could be and didn't wince or let out even a whimper when the needle went in. She even had to poke around a little to find the vein. So proud of my brave girl!  

The nurse at the kidney doctor's office called regarding Sara's labs. The bloodwork doesn't look great. It's not the worst it could be and it's pretty similar to her last labwork 2 months ago. However, there continues to be protein in her urine and he is very concerned about that. The doctor would like to see us next week instead of in December like he had planned. When I originally posted about Sara being diagnosed with chronic kidney disease, I listed some factors that the doctor would monitor every 3 months as indicators of kidney function--her blood pressure, her growth rate, and protein in her urine. High blood pressure indicates the kidneys are working harder to perform. Slower growth rate indicates the kidneys are not functioning as well as needed to continue an upward path on the growth chart. And levels of protein in her urine are also a sign of poor kidney function. We go on Thursday next week to discuss this further with him.


The ultrasound at the hospital was extremely lengthy. Not only do they have an entire list of images they are required to capture but she also had to take extra time to stop and take pictures of the larger stones and measure them. Previously we were told Sara had 2 large kidney stones in each kidney. At one point during the exam I looked up and saw 3 large circles on Sara's left kidney. The tech stopped at the first one, captured the image, measured it. Then she focused on the 2nd one. I knew what she was doing. They usually remain pretty quiet because they can't share information but since I already knew Sara has kidney stones I just asked "Which images show the kidney stones?" The tech paused and said "They are all over." She confirmed that the 3 circles I was looking at were stones and then there was a long narrow bar of them clustered together, as well. My heart sunk but in those moments, you have to be "normal" for your child.

We headed over to the urologist after the test to discuss the results with him. Shannon met me there from work and his mom was with us so we didn't have to discuss things in front of Sara. We opened the door of the office to standing room only. 90 minutes of waiting before we got back to see him. He was very frustrated and explained 3 of his nursing staff called in sick and they just couldn't process patients fast enough to get them back to him. By now it was lunch time and thankfully Grandpa George was on his toes to realize Adam would be hungry so they slapped some lunch together after a busy morning of working in the garage together.

The urologist indicated the ultrasound was comparable to last time but he still was perplexed by Sara's kidneys and used the phrase "we are entering new territory." We asked about surgery to fix the reflux because we felt it is too risky to her kidney function if she gets another UTI. He doesn't want to do reflux surgery until the kidney stones are addressed because if he does, it may make it harder to do something with the stones. But if she has 1 more UTI the reflux surgery will be immediate. The urologist mentioned again he thinks the stones are from when Sara was in the NICU and the meds she received. I'm so glad he mentioned that because I had forgotten we didn't have a chance previously to tell him we researched that with one of the NICU doctors and Sara did not have any of those meds. He looked at us stunned, "You're kidding? I don't know what to think now!" I greatly appreciate his honesty but that's not exactly what you want to hear.

He felt like he still wasn't getting a clear enough picture of the kidney stones to form a plan so he ordered us to go right over for an x-ray. By the time we got home that day Adam was already up from napping! I think we were all exhausted but I was thankful Shannon's parents had come to help.

The urologist contacted me Monday and said the x-ray did not show enough of what he was hoping so he wanted Sara to have a CT scan. Initially we were using this as a last resort because of the high levels of radiation she would be exposed to and he wanted to protect her. He spoke directly with the radiologist so they knew exactly what area to focus on and to keep it very limited.

In the meantime, I felt the need to begin researching things more myself. Late Monday night while Shannon was in bed, I did some internet research and found that Children's Hospital Boston has a Pediatric Kidney Stone department. I read everything on their site and called them on Tuesday. The nurse said I could send all of Sara's records to them and the doctor would review it. Then he would notify us as to what kind of appointment he would want to do but they would not do a phone consultation. However, they would consider a physician to physician phone call if our urologist would like some input. I held onto the information to discuss it and hoped he would be open if it was needed.

So yesterday we headed back to the hospital for the CT scan. Sara's eyes got a little big when she saw this big contraption. She laid down on the table and rested her head on the pillow while they brought her a warm blanket. They raised the table up and slid her halfway into the tube to position her properly. They laid a protective covering over her mid section and the nurse put a protective vest over me. For a moment, I wondered if all of this was going to affect her ability to be a mommy some day but I had to let that be a passing thought. I held on to her hand and the table slid into the tube until just her head was poking out, it made a whirring sound like an airplane starting up and you could see it spinning thru a little window pane on the machine. Then the bed came out, then back in, then out, and back in. She got real quiet and her eyes were like saucers but she didn't move a muscle.

I met with the urologist at 8am this morning to discuss the results. Adam was hanging out with our favorite neighbor for a bit. I was running late so she told me to just send him on over and she would watch for him. There he was in his PJ's, jacket, and crocs with a back pack strapped on hiking across the yard all by himself. When did he get to be such a big boy? I stood there for a moment as I watched him walking off and the neighbor came out and waved. I wished I had captured that on camera because it was reflective of how independent the kids are getting already!

Thankfully there was no standing room only this time! We got right in and...surprise they had another room with a cool exam table we hadn't seen yet - a bus!






Sara was very excited and wanted to hide her pez dispenser in one of the cabinets but the doctor came in too soon.





The urologist was very thoughtful and asked if it was okay that Sara was there because he knew last time I didn't want her listening in. I told him it was okay. The first words out of his mouth were "I told you before I didn't have a plan. I still don't have a plan." Then he asked to borrow my tablet of paper that had my notes for today's discussion so he could draw me a picture and help explain. Finally - this has been the most helpful information!


I am not sure why the picture is rotated that way but anyway...the picture on the left/top is a typical kidney that has kidney stones. The large circle in the center is where the stones are located and usually the opening of the tube where the kidney connects to the ureter is quite enlarged. That would be option A - surgically he would enter where the line with squiggles over it is and remove the stones. However, you can see how he drew Sara's kidneys on the right/bottom. Her connection point is not enlarged. It is small/normal sized and the stones are intruding into the opening of the tube leaving the kidney. This is not an option because her opening is just so small that he can't enter that way. 

Option B would be to do surgery like for an adult. That would involve inserting a tube about the size of a pen into Sara's side and removing the stones that way. Sara's kidneys are about 1/5 the size of mine. The urologist did find that they make a child-size instrument but the company makes about 5 per year and he would only use it 1 or 2 times per year so of course his recommendation to the hospital to purchase one has not gotten feedback. If he used an adult size instrument it would destroy too much of Sara's kidneys.

Option C turns my stomach. He would open Sara up, remove the kidney and hold it in his hand. Then he would cut it open like fileting a steak and reach in with his hands to remove the stones. This would be his most preferred method. If excessive bleeding happened, he would have his hands right on the kidney to repair it. If Sara only needed stones removed from one kidney he would go this route because if too much bleeding happened and the kidney died, she could survive on one kidney. It doesn't sound like it but it is also the most careful to her kidney. However, both her kidneys are in the same shape and it's just not an option to do this to both kidneys.

He told me he has been consulting with other doctors locally and they all agree that there isn't a good option. We are welcome to go to Chicago for additional consultations. Then he said "I also have a colleague in Boston that I am considering discussing this with." Really? I have been doing some research about Boston and their Pediatric Kidney Stone department. I like the idea that you know someone there so it could be a collaborative effort. In the end, he wants Shannon and I to be comfortable with a solution we choose and he is completely open to consulting with some outside resources. I asked if it would be easier for me to get Sara's records or for him to. He decided that if I went to the hospital immediately and picked up the CD of her images, I could bring it back to him and he would send it to be received by Tuesday. Then he said "Wait! There is a team here from Boston right now! They will be at my office at 9am for some meetings and then they are flying back this weekend. I can have them hand deliver it and tell my colleague to call me as soon as he reviews it." He left the office and picked up the phone to call the radiologist and put a rush order on preparing the CD. Then he told the receptionist at the front desk to not even check me out so time wasn't wasted - I would be right back! I think he was about as excited as I was. Within 15 minutes I had driven to the hospital, gotten the CD of all of Sara's records from both ultrasounds, her VCUG, her x-ray, and her CT scan, and was back at the urologist to drop it off.

I can't tell you how encouraged I am about discouraging news. Each time we meet we learn more about how unique Sara's situation is. It is very hard to keep that in mind when you look at her from the outside and see absolutely nothing different about her. I think God was woven into every step of this working out this way. From me researching more and finding Boston, to the urologist initiating the conversation and actually having a colleague out there, to a team from Boston being in town and able to get Sara's records delivered so quickly. I am expectant that our prayers will continue to be answered and we will find some positive news with the Boston colleague. Maybe that hospital will at least have the smaller instrumentation to perform the Option B surgery.

Sunday, October 28, 2012

Out of the mouths...

A few days ago I heard Sara say something from the backseat of the car. What I heard was one of the strangest things. Apparently it is important to her because I heard it again tonight. It went something like this..."Mom? Some day I want to ride a racing camel. With boots on. And a helmet. And a seat with handlebars to hang onto. And a seatbelt."


Adam and Sara both have been into nurturing various stuffed animals lately and calling themselves mommy and daddy. I went into the basement and dug thru a box of preemie clothes today and brought up a pajama outfit, knit hat, and bib for each of them to use. Their eyes lit up! Adam woke up early from nap and went right to his "baby". He put him in his dump truck pajamas and sat him in a high chair. Then he put on his stocking hat and told me it was almost covering his baby's eyes. He went on "This is baby's bib for when he's eating. This is the hanger for when he isn't using the bib. I bought it on clearance."


Yesterday we had Trunk or Treat with the twins group. On our way home, we stopped at the neighbor's to show her the kids' costumes. Shannon and I were explaining how trick or treating worked and then we tested them. Okay, now what are you going to do when we get to Tammi's house? "Ring the doorbell!" That's right...and what are you going to say when she opens the door? "HI!"

Saturday, October 27, 2012

2012 Small Wonders Walk

Last weekend was one of our favorite events of the year - the annual Children's Hospital of Illinois Neonatal Intensive Care Unit Small Wonders Walk. It was started by a group of graduate parents as a way to raise money for the NICU to provide supplies and training and other things that will continue to make our facility one of the best in the country. We love seeing other graduate families. It's also the only time the kids have a chance to meet the doctors and nurses who cared for them as they are not allowed back in the NICU.

I would have to say in the 3 years we have attended, this was my favorite year so far.

First, the kids were old enough to get a balloon animal! Adam picked this awesome monkey climbing in a tree. Sara was visiting with a family with me so, in her absence, Adam chose a pink kitty on a leash for her.




Of course we headed outside and enjoyed walking together.






We beat the crowd getting back inside and went right to the face painting station. Sara selected the butterfly this year and Adam a spider with a web. She is so awesome!





What cracks me up is that while I am trying to take pictures of the kids, they are trying to glance over and see themselves in the mirror. First Sara...


Then Adam...



 We also enjoyed a concert by JulieK! I think their favorite song was The Lemon Shakeup.






Out of all the exciting festivities of the day, my favorite moment was just after we had a family photo taken. A couple pushing a stroller with a very tiny baby inside stopped us - "Excuse me, we don't mean to interrupt. Adam and Sara, right? We looked at their photos on the table of the Family Dining Room every day we were in the NICU last December. It helped us get thru the day and gave us hope." We had no idea who this couple was but they sure felt like they knew us. That is why we do the Walk, and that is why we volunteer on the Family Advisory Board, and that is why we reach out to mentor other graduate parents.

For those of you who supported us with prayer and financial support - thank you so much!

A mouse in our house!

And he knows how to fetch a ball and roll it back to you!




Sunday, October 21, 2012

Pumpkin carving extravaganza

The kids had been asking when we could go pick pumpkins to carve and my response continued to be "it's dark and we have to pick a pumpkin when the sun is out" or "dad's not home and we are going to do it as a family." Shannon spent a few days traveling with extended hours so he was off last Thursday - perfect day since it wasn't dark and we were having family time!


We chose an easy local option and drove just down the road to support a family farm. The kids thought it was so neat to jump out of the car and race to all the different groups of pumpkins. They had so many different kinds, they didn't know what to look at first--small ones, big ones, ones that were different colors, ones that had crooked necks like a goose, ones that had warts, ones that were big, and ones that were HUGE!













While Adam was busy picking between a big pumpkin and a HUGE pumpkin, Sara broke out into song and dance on the tent pole!











Adam finally decided his strong muscles could only handle a big one and Sara needed a "warty one." Shannon and I added 2 small ones--one striped that looked like a green pepper and one that looked like a cupcake with frosting. I chose a HUGE one that was green and orange because...well, because no one else had one that big!





We got home, chose our designs, set up our caving area, and started in. I got the top cut off my pumpkin and Adam's pumpkin. I tried to get the kids to just dig their hands in to clean out the gunk. Sara was all over it but Adam tried once and didn't like it. Instead he reached in and pulled out one seed at a time with a scoop!










I tried to poke my knife in Sara's warty pumpkin. Uh-oh. This thing was as hard as a piece of wood! Shannon...we are going to need some tools for this job!




By the time we got all the pumpkins cleaned out, we needed lunch and a break for nap. Once we resumed, we got our patterns taped to the pumpkins. Once again, my pumpkin and Adam's was easy as pie to cut the pieces out.




Sara's needed some tools that were a little stronger.


Just a few finishing touches that needed the dremmel. We had to take it outside to avoid flying pumpkin shavings, safety glasses and all!


The finished masterpieces--the kids were so proud! Adam chose a monkey and Sara a kitty.





Mine was the ghost.







And because it was so HUGE I carved an owl on the back side, too!



Thursday, October 11, 2012

Happy Birthday, Dad

Shannon's birthday was last week and I knew by experience with the kids that I could not plan anything prior to the big day or they would let all the cats out of the bag!

So I woke up the morning of his birthday and made my plan for the day. After breakfast, we were going to get dressed and load up the car. A great birthday gift idea came to mind and that was our first planned stop - Bradley University for a baseball hat. Shannon had mentioned a few months ago that he had never had a Bradley hat and he did not have any red hats, which is his favorite color! Tragedy. Then we would go to Culver's for an ice cream cake, followed by Alwan's for steaks, and Menards if we had time. My route was planned.

Of course the kids took off their listening ears for the morning and it took an hour to get dressed and out the door. I found a cooler to put the groceries in and got the kids strapped in their car seats. 10am and the clock was ticking. I turned the key in the Expedition and nothing. Dead battery. My heart sank. Of all days when I was trying so hard to plan something nice for Shannon. Fighting back tears of disappointment, I called my neighbor to see if she was home. She was helping another friend in need but offered that friend's husband to come give me a jump start! My hero for the day!

Within 30 minutes the kids were strapped back in and we were on our way, hopeful I didn't have any more problems that morning. So many hats to choose from at Bradley, but I think we made a great pick. Off to Culver's. Turtle or Brownie Explosion? After a few minutes, the kids settled on Brownie Explosion, which was a big hit with Shannon. Then to Alwan's for a hotel steak cut into 1/3 thickness and put in a bag to marinate, a few potatoes for the oven, and carrots to steam. Sounded wonderful already!

The kids decided on the way home that they didn't want to put the present in a wrapped box and instead leave it in the bag and hide it on Adam's bed. Shannon got home from work and they were beside themselves with excitement! Sara asked if she could start singing the song she had created. Adam wanted to give him the present right away and came running out of his bedroom with the bag. "Hang on, Adam, go put it back and give Dad a minute!" As soon as Shannon came out of our bedroom, Adam ran up to him empty handed and screamed "Dad we bought you a hat!" Then he turned to get it from his room, pulled it out of the bag, and put is on his head. Shannon got a good laugh out of that.






The steaks turned out awesome, some of the best I've made. And the ice cream cake was a big hit - chocolate ice cream with a chocolate cake base, chocolate drizzle and chocolate candies on top - how can you go wrong?!

Not the greatest picture of everyone but what can you do?


Happy birthday, Dad. Hope we made you feel special on your day. And big thanks to Rick for saving the day with the jump start!